Meeting with Bryan on cross-corp mapping and working on the application flex grid stuff. He is making some progress. He showed me a demo of what he has done and we talked about next steps, goals, and vision. We even went slightly backwards and decided to take some things out and add some other things in other places. Light chopping and hacking and making some changes.

Towards the end of the meeting, I was getting a little overwhelmed with everything and spent some time expressing concerns and frustrations because Bryan would listen. Things such as: planning, lack of planning, number of projects, having to redo code, the depth and complexity of things, looping in all the custom stuff, losing time in transition, fracturing into subs (every level), lack of skilled players, funding, knowing what is coming down the pipeline (future projects), so many needs, time it takes to get things done, depth of what is needed, etc. It gets pretty deep pretty quick. We talked about how things keep evolving and the challenges that go with that. We talked about emails, tech support, requests, requirements, pressure, etc. How do you make it so that you (as a person) are protected and that the full application doesn't get smashed and/or squished, with you underneath it? That might sound funny, but it feels like a real threat.

After our meeting ended, I think Bryan could tell that I was not doing very good and pretty stressed. Bryan came over and just listened and talked with me for over an hour. Mostly, he was just listening and letting me talk. It was good to get things off my chest and virtually just dump for a bit. It also helped to put some of the thoughts and feelings into words and at least attempt to express what I was feeling. The biggest overall theme was a accumulation of tons of little things that feels like an insurmountable barrier. I felt better after we chatted. We really do have a lot of great things going for us right now. Count blessing, not problems... :) That will help. I feel kinda beaten up, but still standing. We will hit it again tomorrow.